Tired

I'm tired of everything.

Tired of the pain,
tired of the tears,
tired of the weary hours,
of all the wasted years.

I'm tired of feeling this way,
tired all the time.
I'm tired to my very core...
(It sounds much better when I rhyme...)

I'm tired of living this way,
I wish it wasn't so.
I'm tired of this bed of pain,
but there's nowhere else to go.

I wish I wasn't tired,
I wish I had more power,
I wish I wouldn't think these things,
hour after hour.

I'm tired of waiting here,
of mourning what I've lost,
but despite the longing to move on,
the end does not outweight the cost.

I'm tired of these people,
I wish they'd go away.
I wish I wouldn't trust new friends,
because they hurt me the next day.

I'm losing part of myself,
feeling tired constantly.
I wish my path would somehow change,
this isn't how I want to be.

I'm exhausted by the feelings
time and time again,
by the people I thought would matter,
but it always seems to end.

I'm tired of always being wrong,
can't seem to get it right,
so I'm left here feeling empty,
every single lonely night.

But most of all I'm tired
of myself and how I feel.
I wish something would change around here,
I wish I knew what fake and what was real.